Heart v. Brain Tug of War

MY heart and brain are in a never ending tug of war.
my heart being the hopefull optimistic part of me is not as strong as the logical yet pessimistic part of me, my brain.
However this is a tug of war, and neither ever seem to goo away.
I just have that constant pulling inside of me.
Now sometimes it is good for my brain to over power my heart, which it usually does.
such as in jelousy. My heart is what feels jealous. If my brain were not there pulling it back, it could possibly consume me entirely. While heart says screww this you are good enough, noo your better than good, you're better, you are the best, why on earth does this peroson get everything? my brain pulls me back into perspective and says ya know what this person got that because they deserved it. You were not good enough this time. so BE quiet.
and eventually my heart caves on such a case because its usually partially true.

This is not always good to have and overpowering logical pesimistic side though. See on the outside I am a completely happy person, but see its mostly for other peoople. To my brain it will always work out for everyone else, but for me... not nessesarily. Especially with GUys. Brain: It'll never work out. It never does for you. stop trying, whats the use. Heart: Keep going, maybe he likes you maybe something will happen common please dont give up.


and this time in this particular situation, My brain though its saying the same thing, it still REALLLLYY realllyy wants my heart to be right.