ChemIstry

I have one word: Chemistry.

i hate it.
the end.


P.S. just because i hate it doesnt mean im not good at it, i have noticed that i understand a few more of the problems than the people around me at my table
but that doesnt mean that ill be able to pass that test tomorrow...

The Real End
God Bless Us Everyone
Colleen

Study Hall Boredom

Hey yall I'm in study hall and quite bored

It's a Thursday but it feels like a Friday since we don't have school tomorrow.

Its the last period of the day and I thought that I was going to have to go to a speech team meeting rund carpool home and then go to play practice and then work the lock-in but the speech meeting was cancelled and soo was play practice soo now imm gunna take home carpool go home and take a nap and then come back up for the lock-in Woot Woot

Soo I'm rather excited for tomorrow, Molls and I are throwin a Birthday Party fo (without an R) Margaret and Julia

(EXCITING)

its gunna be great its such a fun theme and I cannot wait.

Soo homecoming is next friday and i have no idea whats going on

havnt bought my ticket yet... not sure if im bringin a date...

but i do have a dress! Its the pink one i wore to mass on dress day over the summer

That was soo much fun

Hmm i Guess tahts about all i need to write about

the end! :-D

<3

Colls

Tired and Sick or Sick and Tired I Get Confused

Ok soo my last blog all turned out ok
what i was worried about turned out to be nothing
but it could have been soo if ya prayed for it I surely appreciate it

thats about a vague as it could be but thats all your getting sorry

next item on the agenda... sleep
i feel aweful sick
my throat hurts and i've been really really cold all day long
i want to sleep but its way to early for that...
perhaps ill watch a movie

yeah a movie sounds good
sorry for the shortened post but as I said
I'm really tired....

Worry, Fear, and Prayer

Hmm soo i know that i don't blog very much. i always wait till theres time to just sit an rant about everything. till theres time to read thoroughly the blogs that i follow. and since school is a time suck, well usually i can get on once a week.

so i apologize.

anyway but what i really want to say is this.

Worry and Fear are things that i try try tryyyy (and usually fail) to not do.

but when something big comes up, and im not good at avoiding those things in the first place...

well lets just say my stomach does little squeezings.

And i know that i shouldnt.

i know that i should just give eveything to God. let him handle it.

i Know that he knows what he's doing

but i get worried.

and scared

All day friday was like this.

and too respect her privacy im not actually going to say what's going on (at least right now when things are still up in the air)

but i would like to say one more thing.

Prayer is a powerful thing

and even though i know theres not much to do to stop my worry i know that God will handle this situation.

Soo even though im scared i will try my best to keep in mind that Greater Things Have Yet To Come. and will keep fear out of my heart.

Afterall Fear... is only

False

Evidence

About

Reality

Thanks for reading.

Colleen

Just a little bit cheesed right now...

Ok soo auditions were last week for the play rightt??

right

and most NORMAL driectors gve you a reasonable time fram for when the cast list will be posted, usually a week to a week and a half rigghhttt???

right

well my school mommy and director of the plays is obviously NOT normal.

School mommy is being a Jerk with a capital J.

soo i wasnt worried about this at all till she took me aside thursday morning and was asking about my conflicts, then she casually mentions that im in the running for some lead roles, and will need to see her during academic hour to "read" something for her. SHe also asked me how i thought i did. honestly i didnt think i did bad, I mean theres always room for improvement, especially when you're nervous as heck for audtitions, and then there was that one part of the acting that i totally flubbed. but other than that i didnt think i did horribly.



SHe tells me that the other "judges" thought i did really well, but she thought that i was holding back.. I definetly didnt hold backk



but anyway the morning passes and im a little nervous about the play in generall whens the list going to be posted, whats this reading thing about, but it didnt consume me until AFTER academic.



SOo i goo to see her and a couple other people are in there, two of my close buddys, and two seniors, one who i like, and one whoo can be nice but not always, oh and then later this really really sweet sophomore came up too. so she has us go up one at a time and sing her jingle bells



Yes Jingle Bells

multiple times

in weird voices.



no reading involved just singing and a little improve

soo then before we leave she says the cast list might be up tonight but maybe not cause of (insert lamest excuse for not being able to fullfill your commitments in here) and yeah soo but it WILL be up tomorrow.



Thursday afternoon and evening. Homework, hang with Laura, youth Group, Distractions but everytime i remember it... that pit in my stomach roles into a little ball and squeezes.



get home

theres a note on her website saying itll be up at three tomorrow

grrrrr



soo i went to bed angry

when i woke up and had gotten ready molly texted me saying shea left a new note saying itll be up by 8 tongith

GGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRR



knots and butterfles were in my stomach all freaking day long

Molly came up to me after school and said " ok soo i had laptops in my last class and i checked the web..."

me: Oh crap what did she doo????

Molly: She posted a list alright but she forgot the parts!!!!!!!

Me: KSJDAFLKSDJFLKSDJFLSDKFJL:SKDFJKLDFJD SHE FREAKING WOULD!!!!!!!!



later leah and margaret came up to me

Leah: guess what she did

Me: i already know Molly told me

Margaret THIS IS NOT FAIIRR

Leah: hey guys you made the play but hey who care what part you get?



and wanna know when were spossed to know our parts? tomrrow

no time posted this time

itll be posted tomorrow

hey School mommy thanks for the notice

first cast meeting is sunday

but it would be nice to know what part we got



Gotta say school mommy is really driving me nuts right now i swear she is trying to kill me.

Finnallyy Fridayy

Soo today is friday the end of the longest week yet
not a bad week
just long
and.. uneventfull
well except i got to be in advisement twice this week (NEW RECORD)
and there were tryouts (as always could have dont better, but could have done worse)
oh btws the show we are doing is a musical version of a CHristmas Carol
kinda weird i know
but it getss weirder cause all the guy parts were changed to girls
ednaneezer scrooge....
weird

i had a ton of homework
a lot of which was procrastinated till the night before
typical of me

youth group was amazing
fara led the talk and she did like reallly really really good
i was impressed

hmm today i saw laura
and i hadnt all week
soo i was really happy to do that :-D

hmm thats about it
i kind of love my friends
and im gunna leave with the sentance that describes exactly how i feel at this moment
Sometimes i wonder why people would deal with me, but then i stop asking why and just am thankfull that sooo many wonderful amzing people doo, cause id fall flat on my face with out them!!!

this is the end of my blog today :-)
Colleen